So manyy changes. I’m surprised my head hasn’t exploded yet.
I went for my weekly check up with Dr Green today. I’ve got the rest of the week off to do some soul searching. Over the course of my weekend just gone I was looking online for other jobs. I quickly realised I was looking in the childcare field.
I haven’t been back to my old job since I started at the health fund and I feel a slight sense of loss. One reason why I left childcare, apart from it being rather stressful and un-bearable at the time, is because all my life I have been around kids. Taking care of them, etc. Everyone expected me to stay in childcare and excel. I wanted to prove I did more than that. I think I wasn’t getting a sense of fullfilment.
I want to work with kids again. I love kids. Yeah it’s stressful. But it’s pretty rewarding too. Having children recognise you.. and miss you. It’s wonderful! If I can make one difference in a childs life.. and it be a long lasting difference then I’ve done a great job.
I want to make a difference. I don’t want to be a voicce at the end of the phone. I want that interaction with growing minds. I want to provide a great environment and a challenging one.
I have to take time this week to really organise and sort out where I want to be and what direction to go in. But I think I already know where my heart lies..