When I opened up this page I had something I wanted to write about. Avoidance, actually. But now I find that I don’t want to write about it. Ha! I’m avoiding writing about avoidance. Funny, that.
I just went for a run. Now I’m not much of a runner (I prefer brisk walks). But I’m going to make myself a runner. One day at a time, and I will do it. Baby steps. That’s all I can do. I don’t want to run to lose weight, and I don’t want to run just for something to do. I want to run because I can. Because I’m pretty good at running away from certain things, may as well make sure I can run really fast and really long.. Haha!
No, I want to be able to feel that rush of endorphins from a really good workout. Endorphins make you happy and I want to be as happy as can be. Unfortuantely avoiding un-pleasant things isn’t making me happy, but I’m not un-happy because I stepped over the avoidance pile and I’ve done what I know I should do, either.
I’m talking in circles here. Clearly my run didn’t clear much in my head. But then again I didn’t run for long. Baby steps.
I can do it. And at the end of it, I will be OK.
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